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Saturday, February 23, 2008

Adrian again

OK, at this point, I would assume that you have visited Adrian's blog by now. By reading his blog, you should now know how bad my memory is... hehehehe... well read his if you don't have a clue what I'm talking about... conclusion is, I don't have a recall button!!! I am very impressed because he actually remembers most of the details that I didn't remember. It's like I have a book, with titles and maybe subtitles, but not contents... but hey, I still remember how he smiled (the mouth kinda streched from his left ear to his right...) when I hugged and said goodbye to him after a McDonald's session!!

and so my story telling continues...

It was some time near the opening of the Venetian. I got hold of him. We lost contact for about half a year I think.

I was still in the previously relationship which started to make me hate myself at that point. I told myself off time and time again! However, it didn't work and I have to admit that I was badly hurt, so weak that I could not get out of it as easy as I used to (I had never had problems walking out of a relationship but this one!). But everytime I saw Adrian, he was able to make me forget about all those trouble I was having. I think that was because he was the only one outside of my everyday social life -- everyone of my friends and colleagues knew about this bf that I had...
I have to admit that I wasn't being totally honest with Adrian. Well I didn't actually lie to him, I just didn't tell him things?? hehehehe... I hear somebody telling me to F off now... hahahaha! Hey, I thought he had a gf! I did see a wallpaper on his phone that kinda made a statement that he wasn't available. "Hmm... typical Chinese girls from this part of the world (HK, Macau, China or even Thai...)!" I thought to myself. And so I asked him how his date was going. He said he wasn't dating. "Ya, right, like I am blind or something??" I didn't believe him tho. He did mention he was thinking about going steady with a girl but he could not make up his mind because he was thinking about quiting his job and move on somewhere else - not Macau. Don't ask me where, I can't remember!

And so he was just a friend. Although I enjoyed all the chats and laughs during our very brief lunch meetings nothing was likely to happen anyway! I didn't have the space in my head for anything else anyway! Being alone out here, an alien environment, was tough enough. Despite the fact that I am a Chinese, the cultural differences here made me feel like I'm an alien. And at the same time, I was going through the very annoying process of breaking up you see. And I was moving apartment and all... Adrian has always made it clear that I could call him for help anytime, even when I got scared at night, I was allowed, no, encouraged to call him anytime. Somehow I have never done that. Did not call him when I slipped and fell in the bath tub ended up with bruises on my legs, tighs, arms and dunno where else... Did not call him when I felt a pat on my tigh at night when I was sound asleep in my room... Did not call him when I left the house keys to both my apartments (old and new, I was moving from the old apartment to a new one because the landlord wanted a 35% increase of rental!!!) at 4am and I spent 5 hours in the car to wait for the locksmith to open... and that's me, the very annoying me to some of my closest friends -- I solve my own problems, and if I told you about what had happened that would mean that problems have been solved.

Until right before I went to the UK "break-up trip" with my now officially x-bf, Adrian text me and said that he had something to tell me when I get back (he didn't know what kind of a trip that was, it was irrelevant). I was curious but I kinda knew what he was planning to say. and he asked me to help him post a few Christmas cards when I visit London. and so I went off to this trip with him in my mind -- I had to remember to post the cards for him. And there came his sms wishing me a Merry Christmas. I received the same message once every hour, for 4 consecutive days! I was annoyed. The 2nd day, I text him and said, "the Christmas couldn't be any merrier than this... but you don't have to send me 1 every hour. it's getting freaky..." I received no reply from him and the sms's kept coming until the 4th day, I got fed up and turned off the phone! "OK, I need an explanation, that was not the Adrian that I knew!" and when I turned the phone back on, it stopped. I thought, "please please let it be the network!"
I got back, exhausted and weak but what was gonna be done was done. I set myself free.
Adrian told me that he checked with his handphone's network provider and they said that the message was caught in the loop. "Yes! It was the network!" hahaha!!
And we started meeting up again, this time, we even went out for drinks.
to be continued... fingers got cold and tired... and brain dead...


Adrian



Finally, a Saturday off. Which finally gives me the time to do some stuff I've been wanting to, and that includes writing something here...

It was sometime in the last 2 months of 2006 as far as I could remember (well Adrian managed to trace back and literally "tracked down" the exact date we met! It was 28/11/2006, I could only remember that it was a Tuesday coz it was scheduled to be a weekly-sample-viewing-day). Sometimes my brain would just fail me and remember nothing! I'm sure you have experience like that when your brain just stopped the recall function... mine just has a malfuntion recall button that's all hehehe...

I'm trying my best here and of course, Adrian's blog did help a bit to remember what happened that day.

I remember walking into the meeting room with the granite sample I was supposed to present, I was nervous because that sample has to be approved or we were screwed (at least that's how the Project Managers made it sound!). People with different samples came into the room and placed them on the table and slowly, the room started to get crowded. And there were very big samples that could only be placed on the floor intead of the table. Wow, these are mock-ups la! I thought. And I just hoped that mine gets to be looked at and approved first so that I could get out of the room fast. Then, I just can't remember how, I started talking to this gweilo who came in with a couple of guys helping him to move all his big, bulky and heavy samples into the room. Yes, that was Adrian.

I gave him my name card. I don't remember him giving me his though. As soon as I stepped out of the room, with my approved sample, he started sending me text messages! Well I was supposed to turn left when I got out, I turned right. After a few steps, "oops! wrong way!" and I turned around and walked passed the meeting room. I looked into the room, saw him in this chair playing with his phone. I thought I would waive and say goodbye again if so happens he looks back at me. But he was just too busy messing with his phone. As I proceeded to another room, just at the door, I received a text message. "O, that's not him..." but deep down inside (my freaky psychic power started working!), I had a feeling that it was him. And to my surprise, it was him indeed. It was like, "Now, that's quick!" and so, that was how the friendship started.

Sometimes we would text each other to chat and sometimes, we would have McDonald's. I was dating another guy at that time. Did not really want anything more than a friendship from Adrian although I knew he was attracted to me. You know, girls just know things like this. I must admit that I found him special in someways. He gets nervous and I could sense it. I didn't really tell him that I had a boyfriend. I'm not sure if I was being selfish or that relationship was just not something serious... I loved talking to Adrian but it was different, I don't know how but there were things that I wouldn't tell him and there were sooo many things that I told him which only my closest friends know. Maybe I was actually looking forward to something else to happen between us...

I started a new job, the sim card that I was using was given back to the previous company I was working for. Before I even had the chance to tell Adrian my new number, my handphone was stolen. I lost all my numbers including Adrian's. I hate it when things like this happen, well who don't?? I did not start using handphones until I was 25 when my x-boyfriend bought me my first handphone. I used to remember all the phone numbers by heart (that was when my brian worked at its top form) before that! And so we lost contact, for a few months until I finally realized I have contacts of the company he was working for. Projexasia... hmm... I interviewed them back in February!! And so I called up the office and asked for Adrian's email address. I sent him an email. I missed him... Although I was making new friends, very good friends came along, but no one was like Adrian. And everytime I saw McDonald's, I thought about him. I just had to find him! Losing a handphone was frustrating enough, I can't lose a friend because I lost a handphone!!

And so we were back "online"!




to be continued... my fingers got tired!


Tuesday, February 19, 2008

New Start


This is a very new start for me (well, it all started in January, I only have the time to blog it now!):


a new blog - I will terminate most of my old ones... and will only keep http://vernette.lifelogger.com/


a new, magical relationship - with a very wonderful man, Adrian Lydiard.



Ya, ya, ya, this is Adrian, he's English and he has blue eyes! And blonde hair!!



new best friends - I have, well, we have decided that these friendships will last a lifetime!




Me, Steve and Luria








Me and Mendy


that's Mendy, Edith and me




The stories? Will be told later as I have just been assigned to work on a shit load of things!!


But, I still love this life!! And I will live it to the fullest!!! And you should too!